[The X-Files S4] standing still

This isn’t about you. Or maybe it is, indirectly. I don’t know. I feel like I’ve lost sight of myself, Mulder.
It’s hard to see, let alone find in the darkness of covert locations.
I mean, I wish I could say that we were going in circles, but we’re not.
We’re going in an endless line - - two steps forwards and three steps back. While my own life is...standing still. 

the X-files season 4 ep. 13 'Never Again'